Sunday, April 20, 2008

It was a full moon night, a few discrete bunch of clouds dotted the night sky. The moon light made the clouds glow with a silvery mist. A silent breeze blew, it was so subtle that it was hard to notice it. The breeze wasn't cool yet, still it provided some respite from the heat. A couple of neon bulbs sparkled atop the distant hill, saving the bulbs and the moonlight, the hill was engulfed with darkness. A dog barked carelessly and soon another one joined him, but they too fell silent soon. Silence is golden, is what the article was all about in the Sunday Times. It spoke of people preferring to remain silent to prove a point. But, did any one ever notice, that silence can not always be a choice, but sometimes a person can also be forced to remain silent.

She didn't know, exactly what made her fall silent. But, it was gradual, and certain circumstances made her silent. The silence was just as gradual as the splitting headache which she gets now. She wanted a break from the city, a break from the usual yada yada of the people around her, from the noises which were so inherent to the city, that it only worsened her headache. She wanted to escape.

Escape, not as a coward, but escape to explore herself, to find herself, to search for the girl who was long lost in the city and the expectations which the city threw at her. She had lost herself in fulfilling these expectations and couldn't realize till it was quite late. She knows now too, that escape is merely a dream, a mere wish, in her heart.

The city left her so empty that the fragile being which she is now, doesn't have the strength to search for herself. She sits here, in this moonlight, waiting as the city eats away at her strength, rendering her weaker by the second. She sits here getting lost again.

9 comments:

The Narcissistic Introvert said...

looks good ... but I am still not sure what this story is trying to convey. Somehow, to me, these words don't seem to have a purpose ... or maybe I can't see it ...

Kakshi said...

hercules..
its more of a complicated feeling, you may not be able to make sense on the periphery, but its the kind of story for which they say .. "read between the lines"..

Rhombus Tomsen said...

I don't get it, and I tried reading between the lines, what is it? why isn't she able to leave the city or is the city a metaphor?
And why the silence? Why not a scream? sounds like she lost a battle.

Kakshi said...

Hey.. good to hear from you.. long time.. where were you all the while!!
Yes the city is a metaphor..Not a scream coz, this is the state after she is tired of screaming.. she has no strength left to scream!

Anonymous said...

I am lost, Actually lost
Its like..
When u r in a river..
Trying disparately to swim..
So initially..
You try very hard..
But if the current is too strong..
Then You get no where
And after a while..
You just let the current over power you..
'Cause by then.. you have no energy
Neither the wish
To fight any more..
So u feel..
Maybe the current itself..
Will take u to a better place..
Or calmer waters..

Those are pretty good lines, put them in the correct place :)

The Narcissistic Introvert said...

and only if I could write stories like you ... :)

Kakshi said...

Thanks Maverick for quoting my lines.. I guess this is the best place for them :) Coz I had said those lines in context of the same post!

Kakshi said...

Thanks Hercules!

Rhombus Tomsen said...

In a galaxy far far far away! :)