August 07 2009 was the date of my last post... I sit here today squinting at the screen wondering how far I have come or how much behind I am left in the race! I have had sleepless nights, thoughts flooding my mind which wet my eyes. I am angry with my self it's clear, but it's the fear of acceptance which reigns strong, acceptance isn't easy! Life taught me so many lessons but I wonder if I learnt them or if I am still the same old fool!