I complained that traveling for 40kms each side to my office, never left me with enough time to blog. I would leave my home at 8am in the morning and would not reach earlier than 8:30pm often. I would normally sleep in the bus, which was a good way to spend the 4hours of travel. However, today I thought as I haven’t been giving myself the creative freedom that my restless mind deserved, I decided to put my mind to work and blog while my back aches during this journey.

 

I had to write about many things, a year back I was to write about our short vacation, to my birthplace followed by little adventures I had in Ujjain, Dewas & Indore. But I never got myself to writing it. Now, I wait to write about my Australia travel, a 15 day official visit to Gold Coast.

 

One thing I cannot get myself to write about is a trip, the reason is that, my mind starts to race and it floods with multiple thoughts and feelings. To top it being a software engineer, I feel laziness is not a bad habit it’s just my birth-right and it’s morally correct to be lazy.

 

Yawn! We are stuck in a jam, and my bus is crawling and I am getting distracted, a couple of guys are watching Phoonk on the seat right behind me. I hate horror movies, although I find them thrilling and I enjoy them.

 

I don’t mind confessing, that I couldn’t sleep alone at night. I needed someone at least in the house if not in the same room. I have always stayed with my parents and only for couple of years I was in a boarding school where almost 40 girls slept in the dormitory.

 

Well, the Australia trip at least taught me to sleep alone, in a room all by myself, and I am proud of it, and my bus still crawls, I assume the clock will strike 9pm today; I have a gut feeling we are going to set a record ;)

 

 Its festival season in Maharashtra, with the 6th day of Ganpati festival, we do expect a lot traffic because of the celebrations. On second thoughts I want to close this laptop and watch the colourful pandals erected outside :D and I succumb to the temptation. J

 

Bye..

 

Oh damn! Looks like I missed the major pandals on the road, now we will hit the highway and I don’t reckon we will see a lot of them there, and also I need to get my mind onto something, the sounds of the horror movie behind makes me feel creepy!!

 

P.S: I am watching Horton hears a Who!! :)

Wow.. blogging after a long long time.. and was quite taken aback with the new look of blogger..
anyways.. lots to write .. tonnes to share.. in this period I saw some of the worst and some of the best days of my life.. I don't know where to start.. a pathetic team at office .. my mother suddenly taking ill at midnight or the awesome Australia trip which followed..
I guess I will keep the posts to the Australia trip... that will keep everyone interested..
P.S: I feel great coming to blogger.. :) Thanks Blogger.. I thought I would need psychiatric help without you.. ;) ok.. thats getting senti .. lemme get back to my post.. and the ones which will follow..
Australia Trip - 3rd Aug to 16th Aug
Gold Coast, Southport, Queensland, Australia
Holiday Inn - A room on 7th Floor
Winter in Australia - 4 deg C to 14 deg C with strong winds

There is so much to write.. I guess I will put each day one at a time..
In short.. this trip taught me a lot .. I grew and learned a lot as a person .. this was my first trip alone, abroad, to a place so far. Yea! I was a boarding school student in 5th n 6th std .. didn't understand much and never was away from home after that.

I don't want your expectations to be soaring, this trip had its own adventures but don't expect adventures which you may find in a Batman comic or a Tin-Tin comic!

So watch out for the forthcoming posts and some great pics to follow!

After so many days.. I felt that numbness again.. the numbness of your brain.. its that feeling when you don't want to feel anything..
Today a new realization, about me, dawned upon me.. in short I had one of those moments of 'self-realization', not the spiritual kinds, just when you come face to face to your own self..
Well, after that.. you go into that do-not touch me mode i.e. the numbness feeling.. and then things start connecting, and you realize how deep rooted your feelings were.. and you knew your very desire since the beginning, as all your dreams were those desires.. and how ironically, its someone else's words which make you realize that..
Then the worst part.. you start judging those desires, and I wonder why do we have to classify everything into 'Right' or 'Wrong'?! Why can't there be a classification like.. "Nothing"!! Or "Just another thing" or "Anything"!!!
Then the next bad part follows, the guilt trips, yeah I know they are terrible too.. but well.. you feel guilty of not fulfilling your desires and betraying them, and then you feel guilty of being weak and giving in to your desire of fulfilling your desires.. ah.. I know its complicated I hate it too.. so lets leave it at that..
And then you write a blog to pour out your confusion, which results in confusing others.. nevertheless, you feel light.. you smile and carry on with your day! Feeling numb again?!

Happy Mother's Day
One of my mother's favourite song.. it's a beautiful song! Enjoy it mom! :)

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